Love game

Ive told u not to fall in love with me!

U are just too stubborn and uve fucked our friendship.

Please!

Ive told u before, my heart is still owned by someone.
To be with me, is a risky task. Coz once that person summons me by my name, thats it.
I'll go runnin back to her.

Right now she is still my 'home''.. No one can take that spot yet.
It might take a few years or a quarter century for someone else to take that place.

I know, things changed. Im not her home anymore. Im not the hubby anymore.
I know u are worried and u want to take my pain away. But........
Still my heart is owned by this one and only girl.. Yes im drowing but let me be. Let me taste all this.


So darlin here's to u. I hope that u'll find someone new. Forget me and go with ur life.
Falling in love with me is a big NO-NO. Okay? Please dont take this hard. U are one hell of a girl. U can find someone better.

Razlan Shah is here to stay and to wait for his love of his life and wont go nowhere.


Take care,

Razlan.

i dont know

i dont know what is God trying to show me.

all i know is only pain i see..
from what had happened, till what's happening,
till what's coming, i really dont know!

no clues,
no hints,

Ya Allah,
please guide me.
and if she is not the one,
why does it has to be like this?

i am in pain.
i can't say it out loud.
i have no one that can listens,
and the only one who really can listen is her.

but she is no longer here.
her heart has been taken away by god-knows-who..

i am clinging on a very thin string. very thin..

please show me some mercy Lord.

again i am saying, i really do love her. and i really can't live without her.
so, Lord, please, enlighten me. show me something.

goodnight.

When i see u smile

The love that has grown in me,
Made my heart sinking in..

Only u,
The one that can bring me back to life.

Im sick of the questions,
Sick of the answers..

Only u,
The one who can make or break me..

Im tired of the thoughts,
Tired of the tears..

Only u.
The one who can kill me in that instance.

Come kill me. Come break me.
I am all that.
I deserve all that.
In fact, im immuned to all these.

It was u all along.

...

Passing of the greatest love of my life

Grandma. U had to leave. Even i cant prevent that...
I love u soooooo much. What we had together was termendous.
U took care of me since i was small, till i am a grown up.
"Tired" was never in your daily vocabulary. But u just had to leave..
Grandma. U are my everything.. Everything... I love u so much.

Still i remembered that i stayed in to look after u and toasted some bread with cheese..
And i made it just for u. We sat down together, eating and watching TV. Just me, u and that moment.

I love u grandma. I still remembered u fried my favourite fried rice. I love u. Nothing can tell how much i love u. Only god knows..

So now tok odah, i am willing to let you go coz i know u are an angel sent to earth to look after us.
Everyone misses u tok odah. What uve done for us, cant be replaced with anything.

I love u tok odah. We love u tok odah. Rest in peace. I love u. Al-Faatihah.

In memories Saudah Abdullah (1930-2011)

hints

hint me off like that.

turns me on,

make me go gaga,

and u'll know what pleasure do really means.

weird postings

i've got my pay. but for what?

teaching the girls to dance and to do the Haka.

oh my god!

i dont know anything about my jobscope. it's super pathetic.

cmon. please start the training.

damn it.

working etiquettes

im already in my second week here in my new work place,

but i've learnt nothing.

nothing yet.

just super looking forward for the Hakka.




time a lil wasted.